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my experience with a succubus (revised)

1 Jan

I write this as a confession of sorts. you see it was in 1980  when i was a teenager that i had my first experience with a succubus. and i change my life forever. i had a normal childhood. was interested in girls. as well as the outdoors. i come from a family that was christian but were mixed  denominations catholic and methodist. my parents believed in the paranormal. but not to a point of being superstitious. as well as being tolerant and open minded. i had learned from my mother that on  her side of the family they were sensitives. that is they could see or feel ghosts.
as i said my story began in 1980. around the fall time. i was in high school. i was haunted by dreams of a beautiful woman with long dark hair. and yellow green eyes. i didn’t think much of the dreams. i figured that any guy had them. that is until the dream became real. it was then i having paranormal experiences. for each night i was visited by a presence. at first i thought the family pet a half german shepherd; half lab retriever was crawling into bed with me. but when i turn to scold her. she wasn’t there. and as the time went by. the presence became bolder and layed next to me. and the dreams that i had became sexual in nature. being a teenager and always thinking about sex. i took it as a blessing. and as time went by. i welcome this presence. and learned she was the woman in the dream.
i never told my parents about it. although i suspect they knew. but never pressured me about it. as long as i was happy. that’s what mattered.
i had once brought up about spirits. and can they have sex? i had asked. my father told me about the succubus. that  the church always believed these entities were demonic in nature in the old days. but later ruled them out as being that of the mind.
my mother on the other hand  pretty much knew the reality of spirits. because her family were involved with the paranormal. she had said that at times a spirit would return to a love one. and be with that person.
but no girlfriend that i knew died. and i didn’t bring up the subject anymore. anyway i was enjoying it. this spirit relationship was wonderful. because of her i became interested in shamanism and other Paths of the occult , mysticism, and the paranormal.
my relationship with my succubus continued into my adult life. and it never affected my social life. not in a negative way. she was there when a relationship ended. always offering comfort. however my relationship with her started to die down in the 90s. and completely ended after my parents died in 1999.
then around 2009 i found a book entitled sexual alchemy by donald tyson. and learned you could actually summon spirits for sex. i read the book with such hunger.  triggered by loneliness. and a need of companionship. at this time i had a streak of bad luck in money as well as love.
so i set out to perform a simple ritual based on what the book taught. and had drawn a sigil of the spirit whom i wish to contact with.
so on a friday night i performed the ritual. at first nothing happened. so i closed the ritual. and sat on the bed. and meditated.
no sooner than i did this. i felt a warm presence beside me. on my right side. and in my mind i saw a swirling cloud of light. and the figure of a woman  appearing besides me. it was the same one whom visited me when i was a teenager. and in my vision she embraced me. and then was gone. later that night as i laid in my bed. she appeared to me as an apparition on top of my bed.
later i learned  that she had several  names. however she wanted me to know her as meek. she and i had sex that night. and from that point on i felt complete. and i started back on my Path again which that of Shamanism and Middle Eastern Magick.
it has been 5 years since she has returned in my life. later i learned she was centered in the Middle East in the past. and she is Qarinah Djinneyeh. and she lead me to other  types of djinn as well as other types of spirits such  as fae, dragons, demonesses, angels, wraith,  vampires, doujunah ,to name a few.
i love her and them very much.

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my experiences with shadow beings. and my spirits defense.

25 Sep

as noted i did have experiences with shadow beings.
my first experience was back in the 80s when my succubus had started her relationship with me. but mostly in dreams.
one night in august i felt an extreme chill as i laid on the bed. i felt a dark presence above me. i felt a terrible fear then felt my energy drawn from me.
as i felt this presence descend on me. i started praying to the divine for help.
suddenly i heard a voice  of a woman say: you will not touch him.
and i saw a silver orb dart in on the dark presence and caused it to scatter.
recently a year ago. i saw one of my dragons firing balls of light at a spider shadow in from of the television. and i woke up and felt the same Presence again.
however my succubus was on top of me. it seem to be a tug of war between them.
then i saw several orbs and mists of all colors move on the Shadow Presence. and it vanished without a trace.

shadow beings

22 Sep

i decided to take the time and  write about these beings whom iam certain there are a few out there  whom have encountered them.  i myself included.
despite what some paranormal experts have written about. and theorize. the shadow beings aren’t  evil djinn or fae, however they can imitate djinn.
they are not evil human souls or spirits. although they can pretend to be such.
they are not  evil fallen angels. however evil fallen angels have form alliances with them. they are agents of chaos. and are true demons. they are minions of the sharrirrim or  shirrirrim whom i have mentioned in a different blog. and exist in a shadow dimension. whom kabbalists call the qlipphoth or kelipoth. in which the shirrirrim are also a part of.
however make no mistake there are evil djinn and fae. as well as evil human spirits and evil fallen angels. however these spirits become slaves of the shadow beings whom are slaves of the shirrirrim.
shadow beings imitate and mimic other beings. and force other evil and dark spirits to serve them.  thus enslaving them.
shadow beings have  vampiric qualities. but are not true vampires in a sense.
they can also pretend to be a succubus or incubus. and try to enslave people who try to seek a relationship with one. they are masters of causing dissension, mistrust. and worked very hard over eons. to cause division between humans and djinn, fae, etc.
,despite their powers.  and their cunning. they have weaknesses.
for one thing they are overly confident in themselves.
once an alliance is form between humans and other spirit beings. they can be countered. i myself seen my own spirits attack shadow beings.
however the battle shouldn’t be left totally up to them.
shadow beings being pure darkness and evil. they fear light and love.
they fear sunlight. they are repelled by gold, silver or any consecrated object to the Divine Feminine and Masculine i.e. God, Goddess, etc.
they hate love. love for one’s family:  human, spirit, etc.

middle eastern magick part 3: the list of spirits (arwah ) of the sihiriin

15 Jul

the list of spirits and entities  called arwah  among the sihiriin varies depending which sihir you approach.
besides this the list. there is also planes of existence or realms as believed by the sihiriin. so i will list those first.
list of  spirit realms as known by the sihiriin is about five in all. they are the following:
the  first is the Marsha: it is a realm very close to the earth’s dimension it is a realm where the spirit of the dead are not aware that they are dead, because of  their earthly life they aren’t willing to move on, they had died a violent death, they seek justice, vengeance, etc
the sihiriin can contact these spirits. but only when they try to interact with the living. so the sihiriin will try to help the spirit to move on.
the second is called khirbat infar.  it is a realm where the spirits of the dead are unable to move on because of some evil deed in their life on earth.
this realm is also called the marachmawta. although this name refers to a darker place within the kirbat infar.
in other religions these realms would be  refered  to as purgatory, hades, sheol,  summerland,  ghennah,   tartarus the realm of  hela, etc.
the third realm’s name means both the realm and the spirit entities:
they and their realm are called the moustajabiin
the moustajabiin are the entities we know as  the djinn, shedu,  shiddim.  however these names mean the same entities in different cultures such as the jewish and islamic peoples.  they are also  but not limit to would be the fae, nature spirits, etc these beings come through gateways in the earth and above and on it. these same gateways also lead to the realms of the dead as well.  those who dwell here are the marid, ifrit, jounan, dhahab or gold djinn.
dragons also exist here they are called tannim in hebrew. but also called surrish
this realm is also  connected to gaffarim a dark realm where dark entities exist. among them are djinns  such as shaitan, ghul, ardat lili, alu, ezrailim, ubaid, galas.
depending the sihiriin’s background these beings could be bad or good as they choose.
from these realms rule the kings  and queens of the djinn also called the al muhbiin. the kind ones or great ones. these are al muhib, murrah, mirhiz, barqan,  sidi shamhurish,abiad,  maymoun.  as well as queen aynah whom is one of the queens of al qarin, al qarinah   whom is  also called lilitu: their queen mother.
iblis leads the red djinn or shaytan. although these djinn are divided between iblis and his grandson whom is said to converted to islam and opposes his grandfather. and leads shaytan who are good. and are sometimes called the shayian.
also in this realm is the behamahs whom are the grays in UFO circles.
(this might draw some lively discussion. but modern sihirin actually think the grays are a class of djinn refered to as behamahs a subgroup of the ghul.).
there are other realms that are simply called the light and deep darkness.
the deep darkness is the place of entities called the shirririin
the shirririn are true demons. chaos demons who hate everything good as well as love.
they are divided among the following:
a-kaabihiin the bad deed ones
atiliin the devious ones
fasidiin the corrupted ones.
sharririin whom are worst of the lot. and lead the other three. their name means the evil ones.
the place of light is home to:
the khiribu. or cherubim the guardians
the khodam the servitors
the houriyaat the ladies of light.
sarapha burning ones.
the malaki-a the angels
the anunnaki and igigi: the gods.
naphas that have been purified. these include humans and djinn, etc.
there is more of course. but i only give a brief description here.
in the near future. i will add more info.
namaste!  or shalamu allikumu!

middle eastern magick part 2 practices of the sahiriin

16 Jun

the sahiriin practice various forms of shamanism. they would do pathworking, meditation, magick work, and communicate with spirits. which includes through divination and seances.
i wont go into details about their seances. only a short description i will give.
usually all their practices were either held in an area  outside of a dwelling place. or a designated area of their home.
this area is called a burqa’h. here a circle or square was drawn. this circle or square is where spirits are summoned.
the ritual begins with a candle place on the right side of the circle. and a glass or container of water on the left side of the circle.
also incense is place on the lower right of the circle.
the sahir would take salt and spread the salt along the circle. and then place a magick square that is used to summon the spirit.
these squares are called mouraba. and  these squares: about 7 of them correspond to a day of the week. and on each square was written a series of letters in arabic .
they would place the square inside the circle or large square. and depending on the sahir’s religious background. they would invoke a deity whatever that be allah or allat. would bless the circle. and call the entity into the circle.
the spirit would either communicate through a pendulum hung on a stick that the sahir would hold over the circle, cast lots, or paper folded into a triangle.
sometimes two other squares are used. these are use for dedication, petition, and devotion.
they are called the siha kalma, jazaam kibaat, daa-irat al shams al koubra, tasiir.
the first is used for healing, the second for protection, the third  and fourth are  for meditation, shamanistic path working, petition, and devotion.
i will not go into too much details on how to use these squares. only the sahir use them with great care.
in part 3  i will write about what spirits that they communicate and commune with.

my studies in middle eastern magick

23 Dec

for the past couple months i have been studying all paths of middle eastern magick.
the reason for this is that i want to learn about other paths of magick and mysticism which i feel is important to anyone who wants a general idea on how magick is viewed and practice in all cultures.
as noted in my bio i had studied the kabbalah as well as shamanism. which most people don’t realized but is actually a jewish version of shamanism. and the techniques for meditation range from using divine names, using incense like myrrh and frankencense to using dance in which Sufi themselves also use. as well as communicate with spirits, angels, and demons.
i also studied books on sahiriim which is a middle eastern form of magick and spiritism that is rooted in babylonian magick as well as summerian magick and has.been mixed in Islamic folklore.
what i learned is that all these paths have a basic idea about spirits.
the kabbalah teaches there are several types of spirits; these are the shedim, seirim, the lilim, the satanim, the nephilim. all these entities were later demonized by later church writers and rabbinical schools of thought. 
in original folklore these beings weren’t seen as purely evil. but saw as a mixture of good and evil.
in islamic folklore these beings were seen as the djinn. we know them as the marid, afrit, the dakhab (gold) djinn, the jounan, the sila, the shaytan, the ghoul,  to name a few.
these beings are also seen as good and evil.
in the sahriim these beings are classed as the al muhibiin and the ezrailim: the latter are considered trouble makers; the latter beneviolent. there is another group called the gaffarim; which are mixed good and bad entities. and these are other two groups may be subgroups of this one.
one thing that interests me is the teaching among the sahiriim is the realms of marsha and khirbat-infar zone. the former  sems to  match the ideas of the realms of the fae as taught in western occult and mystical paths of an unseen realm that earth is a part of.  and the latter is where human spirits who don’t wish to move on are a part of. such a the etheral plane. (might of spelled that wrong! lol!)
it is taught that each of these planes are actually steps to higher levels of beings.
the book that i’m reading is just volume 1. i’m hoping to get volume 2.
i’m also studying egyptian magick. but decided not to practice it. rather i’ll just read the hymn of osiris, etc. without any rituals although i found just by reading it i feel i slight change in my perceptions. and i have asked two of my egyptian marid djinneyeh for their guidance in learning of  the subject.
but not in practice. which they agreed.
in retrospect i come to realize that the path that iam on is very old. and has been practice for thousands of generations in different forms and paths.
they all agree that there is more to our world and our universe.
and that it is just important to explore the spiritual world and man’s psyche than just space exploration, etc.

wicca for men? revised

11 Dec

form of shamanism to be honest. if you don’t find a masculine entity to relate to. you are doomed from the start.  at least that’s what i thought.
i had learned it is a very ancient path that is based on a keltic form of shamanism. and ancient druidism.
the former; like all shamanism:   the practices are  healing, communication with the spirit world, petition to deities, healing, etc.
the latter is a form of religion and a priesthood whereas they lead the citizens of the keltic world in rituals for petitions to deities and aid from spirits but to the masses.
wicca teaches the One is many. that is the many are gods and goddesses that come from the One. whom is the sum of all.
any male practioner is seen as the God or masculine divine.
any female practioner is seen as the Goddess or feminine divine.
wicca is a nature based religion. and believes in that the Divine expresses his or herself in nature.
for a man there are many gods to relate to: Dagda, Lugh, etc. as well as nordic  Thor or Odin.
the horn god in the religion is not  ha Satan. but a nature god or forest god who watches over nature. he is Balder, Kerrunos.
and if there is any comparison in christianity. he could be identified with the lamb with seven horns in the book of Revelation. as well as the goat of atonement in deteurononmy. for the horned god in keltic as well as norse is the god whom sacrifices himself. such as Odin.
this is what i learned. it is for men.