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my experience with a succubus (revised)

1 Jan

I write this as a confession of sorts. you see it was in 1980  when i was a teenager that i had my first experience with a succubus. and i change my life forever. i had a normal childhood. was interested in girls. as well as the outdoors. i come from a family that was christian but were mixed  denominations catholic and methodist. my parents believed in the paranormal. but not to a point of being superstitious. as well as being tolerant and open minded. i had learned from my mother that on  her side of the family they were sensitives. that is they could see or feel ghosts.
as i said my story began in 1980. around the fall time. i was in high school. i was haunted by dreams of a beautiful woman with long dark hair. and yellow green eyes. i didn’t think much of the dreams. i figured that any guy had them. that is until the dream became real. it was then i having paranormal experiences. for each night i was visited by a presence. at first i thought the family pet a half german shepherd; half lab retriever was crawling into bed with me. but when i turn to scold her. she wasn’t there. and as the time went by. the presence became bolder and layed next to me. and the dreams that i had became sexual in nature. being a teenager and always thinking about sex. i took it as a blessing. and as time went by. i welcome this presence. and learned she was the woman in the dream.
i never told my parents about it. although i suspect they knew. but never pressured me about it. as long as i was happy. that’s what mattered.
i had once brought up about spirits. and can they have sex? i had asked. my father told me about the succubus. that  the church always believed these entities were demonic in nature in the old days. but later ruled them out as being that of the mind.
my mother on the other hand  pretty much knew the reality of spirits. because her family were involved with the paranormal. she had said that at times a spirit would return to a love one. and be with that person.
but no girlfriend that i knew died. and i didn’t bring up the subject anymore. anyway i was enjoying it. this spirit relationship was wonderful. because of her i became interested in shamanism and other Paths of the occult , mysticism, and the paranormal.
my relationship with my succubus continued into my adult life. and it never affected my social life. not in a negative way. she was there when a relationship ended. always offering comfort. however my relationship with her started to die down in the 90s. and completely ended after my parents died in 1999.
then around 2009 i found a book entitled sexual alchemy by donald tyson. and learned you could actually summon spirits for sex. i read the book with such hunger.  triggered by loneliness. and a need of companionship. at this time i had a streak of bad luck in money as well as love.
so i set out to perform a simple ritual based on what the book taught. and had drawn a sigil of the spirit whom i wish to contact with.
so on a friday night i performed the ritual. at first nothing happened. so i closed the ritual. and sat on the bed. and meditated.
no sooner than i did this. i felt a warm presence beside me. on my right side. and in my mind i saw a swirling cloud of light. and the figure of a woman  appearing besides me. it was the same one whom visited me when i was a teenager. and in my vision she embraced me. and then was gone. later that night as i laid in my bed. she appeared to me as an apparition on top of my bed.
later i learned  that she had several  names. however she wanted me to know her as meek. she and i had sex that night. and from that point on i felt complete. and i started back on my Path again which that of Shamanism and Middle Eastern Magick.
it has been 5 years since she has returned in my life. later i learned she was centered in the Middle East in the past. and she is Qarinah Djinneyeh. and she lead me to other  types of djinn as well as other types of spirits such  as fae, dragons, demonesses, angels, wraith,  vampires, doujunah ,to name a few.
i love her and them very much.

my experiences with shadow beings. and my spirits defense.

25 Sep

as noted i did have experiences with shadow beings.
my first experience was back in the 80s when my succubus had started her relationship with me. but mostly in dreams.
one night in august i felt an extreme chill as i laid on the bed. i felt a dark presence above me. i felt a terrible fear then felt my energy drawn from me.
as i felt this presence descend on me. i started praying to the divine for help.
suddenly i heard a voice  of a woman say: you will not touch him.
and i saw a silver orb dart in on the dark presence and caused it to scatter.
recently a year ago. i saw one of my dragons firing balls of light at a spider shadow in from of the television. and i woke up and felt the same Presence again.
however my succubus was on top of me. it seem to be a tug of war between them.
then i saw several orbs and mists of all colors move on the Shadow Presence. and it vanished without a trace.

shadow beings

22 Sep

i decided to take the time and  write about these beings whom iam certain there are a few out there  whom have encountered them.  i myself included.
despite what some paranormal experts have written about. and theorize. the shadow beings aren’t  evil djinn or fae, however they can imitate djinn.
they are not evil human souls or spirits. although they can pretend to be such.
they are not  evil fallen angels. however evil fallen angels have form alliances with them. they are agents of chaos. and are true demons. they are minions of the sharrirrim or  shirrirrim whom i have mentioned in a different blog. and exist in a shadow dimension. whom kabbalists call the qlipphoth or kelipoth. in which the shirrirrim are also a part of.
however make no mistake there are evil djinn and fae. as well as evil human spirits and evil fallen angels. however these spirits become slaves of the shadow beings whom are slaves of the shirrirrim.
shadow beings imitate and mimic other beings. and force other evil and dark spirits to serve them.  thus enslaving them.
shadow beings have  vampiric qualities. but are not true vampires in a sense.
they can also pretend to be a succubus or incubus. and try to enslave people who try to seek a relationship with one. they are masters of causing dissension, mistrust. and worked very hard over eons. to cause division between humans and djinn, fae, etc.
,despite their powers.  and their cunning. they have weaknesses.
for one thing they are overly confident in themselves.
once an alliance is form between humans and other spirit beings. they can be countered. i myself seen my own spirits attack shadow beings.
however the battle shouldn’t be left totally up to them.
shadow beings being pure darkness and evil. they fear light and love.
they fear sunlight. they are repelled by gold, silver or any consecrated object to the Divine Feminine and Masculine i.e. God, Goddess, etc.
they hate love. love for one’s family:  human, spirit, etc.

middle eastern magick part 3: the list of spirits (arwah ) of the sihiriin

15 Jul

the list of spirits and entities  called arwah  among the sihiriin varies depending which sihir you approach.
besides this the list. there is also planes of existence or realms as believed by the sihiriin. so i will list those first.
list of  spirit realms as known by the sihiriin is about five in all. they are the following:
the  first is the Marsha: it is a realm very close to the earth’s dimension it is a realm where the spirit of the dead are not aware that they are dead, because of  their earthly life they aren’t willing to move on, they had died a violent death, they seek justice, vengeance, etc
the sihiriin can contact these spirits. but only when they try to interact with the living. so the sihiriin will try to help the spirit to move on.
the second is called khirbat infar.  it is a realm where the spirits of the dead are unable to move on because of some evil deed in their life on earth.
this realm is also called the marachmawta. although this name refers to a darker place within the kirbat infar.
in other religions these realms would be  refered  to as purgatory, hades, sheol,  summerland,  ghennah,   tartarus the realm of  hela, etc.
the third realm’s name means both the realm and the spirit entities:
they and their realm are called the moustajabiin
the moustajabiin are the entities we know as  the djinn, shedu,  shiddim.  however these names mean the same entities in different cultures such as the jewish and islamic peoples.  they are also  but not limit to would be the fae, nature spirits, etc these beings come through gateways in the earth and above and on it. these same gateways also lead to the realms of the dead as well.  those who dwell here are the marid, ifrit, jounan, dhahab or gold djinn.
dragons also exist here they are called tannim in hebrew. but also called surrish
this realm is also  connected to gaffarim a dark realm where dark entities exist. among them are djinns  such as shaitan, ghul, ardat lili, alu, ezrailim, ubaid, galas.
depending the sihiriin’s background these beings could be bad or good as they choose.
from these realms rule the kings  and queens of the djinn also called the al muhbiin. the kind ones or great ones. these are al muhib, murrah, mirhiz, barqan,  sidi shamhurish,abiad,  maymoun.  as well as queen aynah whom is one of the queens of al qarin, al qarinah   whom is  also called lilitu: their queen mother.
iblis leads the red djinn or shaytan. although these djinn are divided between iblis and his grandson whom is said to converted to islam and opposes his grandfather. and leads shaytan who are good. and are sometimes called the shayian.
also in this realm is the behamahs whom are the grays in UFO circles.
(this might draw some lively discussion. but modern sihirin actually think the grays are a class of djinn refered to as behamahs a subgroup of the ghul.).
there are other realms that are simply called the light and deep darkness.
the deep darkness is the place of entities called the shirririin
the shirririn are true demons. chaos demons who hate everything good as well as love.
they are divided among the following:
a-kaabihiin the bad deed ones
atiliin the devious ones
fasidiin the corrupted ones.
sharririin whom are worst of the lot. and lead the other three. their name means the evil ones.
the place of light is home to:
the khiribu. or cherubim the guardians
the khodam the servitors
the houriyaat the ladies of light.
sarapha burning ones.
the malaki-a the angels
the anunnaki and igigi: the gods.
naphas that have been purified. these include humans and djinn, etc.
there is more of course. but i only give a brief description here.
in the near future. i will add more info.
namaste!  or shalamu allikumu!

middle eastern magick part 2 practices of the sahiriin

16 Jun

the sahiriin practice various forms of shamanism. they would do pathworking, meditation, magick work, and communicate with spirits. which includes through divination and seances.
i wont go into details about their seances. only a short description i will give.
usually all their practices were either held in an area  outside of a dwelling place. or a designated area of their home.
this area is called a burqa’h. here a circle or square was drawn. this circle or square is where spirits are summoned.
the ritual begins with a candle place on the right side of the circle. and a glass or container of water on the left side of the circle.
also incense is place on the lower right of the circle.
the sahir would take salt and spread the salt along the circle. and then place a magick square that is used to summon the spirit.
these squares are called mouraba. and  these squares: about 7 of them correspond to a day of the week. and on each square was written a series of letters in arabic .
they would place the square inside the circle or large square. and depending on the sahir’s religious background. they would invoke a deity whatever that be allah or allat. would bless the circle. and call the entity into the circle.
the spirit would either communicate through a pendulum hung on a stick that the sahir would hold over the circle, cast lots, or paper folded into a triangle.
sometimes two other squares are used. these are use for dedication, petition, and devotion.
they are called the siha kalma, jazaam kibaat, daa-irat al shams al koubra, tasiir.
the first is used for healing, the second for protection, the third  and fourth are  for meditation, shamanistic path working, petition, and devotion.
i will not go into too much details on how to use these squares. only the sahir use them with great care.
in part 3  i will write about what spirits that they communicate and commune with.

my studies in middle eastern magick

23 Dec

for the past couple months i have been studying all paths of middle eastern magick.
the reason for this is that i want to learn about other paths of magick and mysticism which i feel is important to anyone who wants a general idea on how magick is viewed and practice in all cultures.
as noted in my bio i had studied the kabbalah as well as shamanism. which most people don’t realized but is actually a jewish version of shamanism. and the techniques for meditation range from using divine names, using incense like myrrh and frankencense to using dance in which Sufi themselves also use. as well as communicate with spirits, angels, and demons.
i also studied books on sahiriim which is a middle eastern form of magick and spiritism that is rooted in babylonian magick as well as summerian magick and has.been mixed in Islamic folklore.
what i learned is that all these paths have a basic idea about spirits.
the kabbalah teaches there are several types of spirits; these are the shedim, seirim, the lilim, the satanim, the nephilim. all these entities were later demonized by later church writers and rabbinical schools of thought. 
in original folklore these beings weren’t seen as purely evil. but saw as a mixture of good and evil.
in islamic folklore these beings were seen as the djinn. we know them as the marid, afrit, the dakhab (gold) djinn, the jounan, the sila, the shaytan, the ghoul,  to name a few.
these beings are also seen as good and evil.
in the sahriim these beings are classed as the al muhibiin and the ezrailim: the latter are considered trouble makers; the latter beneviolent. there is another group called the gaffarim; which are mixed good and bad entities. and these are other two groups may be subgroups of this one.
one thing that interests me is the teaching among the sahiriim is the realms of marsha and khirbat-infar zone. the former  sems to  match the ideas of the realms of the fae as taught in western occult and mystical paths of an unseen realm that earth is a part of.  and the latter is where human spirits who don’t wish to move on are a part of. such a the etheral plane. (might of spelled that wrong! lol!)
it is taught that each of these planes are actually steps to higher levels of beings.
the book that i’m reading is just volume 1. i’m hoping to get volume 2.
i’m also studying egyptian magick. but decided not to practice it. rather i’ll just read the hymn of osiris, etc. without any rituals although i found just by reading it i feel i slight change in my perceptions. and i have asked two of my egyptian marid djinneyeh for their guidance in learning of  the subject.
but not in practice. which they agreed.
in retrospect i come to realize that the path that iam on is very old. and has been practice for thousands of generations in different forms and paths.
they all agree that there is more to our world and our universe.
and that it is just important to explore the spiritual world and man’s psyche than just space exploration, etc.

wicca for men? revised

11 Dec

form of shamanism to be honest. if you don’t find a masculine entity to relate to. you are doomed from the start.  at least that’s what i thought.
i had learned it is a very ancient path that is based on a keltic form of shamanism. and ancient druidism.
the former; like all shamanism:   the practices are  healing, communication with the spirit world, petition to deities, healing, etc.
the latter is a form of religion and a priesthood whereas they lead the citizens of the keltic world in rituals for petitions to deities and aid from spirits but to the masses.
wicca teaches the One is many. that is the many are gods and goddesses that come from the One. whom is the sum of all.
any male practioner is seen as the God or masculine divine.
any female practioner is seen as the Goddess or feminine divine.
wicca is a nature based religion. and believes in that the Divine expresses his or herself in nature.
for a man there are many gods to relate to: Dagda, Lugh, etc. as well as nordic  Thor or Odin.
the horn god in the religion is not  ha Satan. but a nature god or forest god who watches over nature. he is Balder, Kerrunos.
and if there is any comparison in christianity. he could be identified with the lamb with seven horns in the book of Revelation. as well as the goat of atonement in deteurononmy. for the horned god in keltic as well as norse is the god whom sacrifices himself. such as Odin.
this is what i learned. it is for men.

my experience with negative entities: updated

30 Oct

lets face it. if you are a sensitive, a paranormal investigator, a shaman, witch, wiccan, wizard, spirit keeper, paranormal collector. you will have run ins with negative entities. whatever they be demons, fallen angels, dark fays, red djinn, bad human spirits, dark succubae, etc.

i myself had run ins because i’m a student of shamanism as well as the occult and mysticism and being a spirit keeper i have had experiences.

first thing i learned is don’t be too afraid. the other is conditioning your mind.

conditioning i refer to is an affirmation that you are a child of the divine. that god, the goddess is your parent. if you don’t believe in any deity. that’s fine too. just believe you are the light of the universe in intelligence and influence.

also remember there are good spirits; helpful spirits out there. and you can call on them to aid you. you just need to believe.

with that said and done. the easiest ritual to clear one’s self or home, etc of entities is just telling them to leave. not in anger. but in a calm but very strong voice to tell them to leave. depending what kind of entity you are dealing with. it is good to be polite to them. the reason for this no spirit not even a demon can ever accuse you of being impolite. and use it against you in the spirit world. however if the spirit is impolite to you. you may be likewise.

if it continues (that is the negative activities) you may use whatever prayers or rituals in your belief system against the entities.

then there is smudging:

smudging is burning either sage sticks or grounds. after you light them the latter in a smudging bowl.

ther you go from one room to the other to each corner and say the following:

in the name of father sky mother earth to all unwanted entities who wish to do me harm leave. this is my home. leave now.

i myself use rituals based on ceremonial magick of the hemetic order of the golden dawn.

this is the banishing ritual of the lesser pentagram. you stand at each wall and draw a pentagram as shown in diagram

and you say the following:
before me raphael

behind me gabriel

at my right hand michael

at my left hand auriel

before me flames the pentagram

behind me the six rayed star

i hereby banished all negative and unwanted spirits from this space.

and repeat this at each wall of a room while burning incense which can be sandalwood, frankincense

and if you ancestry is jewish there are some kabbalistic prayers.

most of the time i use a ritual that involves using the name of God and Goddess of the Hebrews: the tetragrammaton and burning incense (mostly frankincense) and blessing the letters of god and goddess’s name in hebrew ( the letters themselves are in hebrew as well). as i hold the incense in my hand and point it in the directions of the earth. and at the end of the ritual i asked God and his shekinah. (the name of God’s bride the hebrew goddess) to clear my living space of negative entities. and to welcome positive ones in. i learned this ritual from reading passages in the zohar and the sefer yetzirah.

if your muslim the reading of surah 72 while burning incense such as the above can be used.

christians would read psalm 91 and recite the lord’s prayer. as well as the hail mary if they be catholic.

if all else fails. and if you fear for the safety of your family. please seek help from paranormal investigators as well as those of your religious

and spiritual backgrounds.

if you are a keeper of spirits and have relationships with spirits. make certain that the spirits that you have a connection to. understand the limits and boundries of that relationship. even spirits can make mistakes. so be patient with them and love them. if there be negative spirits in your presence. chances are they are aware of situration. and will try to get your attention. sometimes those spirits may behave in strange ways even in negative ways. do not pass judgement on them. instead asked them what is wrong. once you know. then asked for their aide and guidance. trust them. they will help you. or lead you where you can get help.
post script: kabbalistic prayer in dealing with negative entities.
the prayer is one line  and three words.
and the first one represents the Divine masculine and feminine as one.
and it is as follows:
yod hey vav hey qora satan
the last word is familiar. it appears in jewish, christian, muslim texts. it represents the leader of the chaos demons.
and it is said as a chant with a lit candle or incense. or without.

the tetragrammaton ritual

25 Aug

this ritual was discovered by accident during my studies in the zohar. as well. as inspired by the work of donald tyson entitled tetragrammaton.
as taught in the zohar and other books such as the sefer yetzirah the four letters of God’s name are establish in the four directions
of the earth as well as the universe. they are as follows:
the first letter yod is towards the east; it represents god the father,
the second letter hey is towards the south; it represents goddess the mother,
the third letter vau is towards the west; it represents  god the son,
the fourth letter hey is towards the north; it represents goddess the daughter
when  i do the ritual i  do the following:
in my living space of my home. i light a candle and burn stick incense.
and i say the following:
in your name  Infinite One God father mother i bless my home. and i invoke the letters of your name and bless them in the four directions
of the earth and the universe.
i face the east and i say barakh yod;
i face the south and i say barakh hey
i face the  west  and i say barakh vau
i face the  north and i say barakh hey.
i turn and face the east. and i  close the ritual with this prayer:
how great is thy name oh God. may it clear all negativity from this space and dark spirits.
barukh attah Ha Shem amen.
put out the incense. but  let the candle stay lit a little bit longer.

Shamanism: my chosen path

19 Aug

i write this to explain my  spiritual path. and  the reason that i chosed it.
shamanism is a very ancient path . and has been around long before any organized religion. at least several thousand years before the building of the pyramids in egypt and the ziggurats in mesopotamia.
and it is found in every culture including those cultures where the great monotheistic religions merged from.
i learned in my studies that the founders of these religions such as judaism, christianity, and islam had actually practiced things that shamans of other  cultures practiced. such as making journeys into the wilderness, doing shamanistic meditations and vision quests there. 
they spoke to spirits of  other realms (although some would address these as visions of angels) as well as healing and exorcising evil spirits (shamans and followers of wicca would call  this clearing of  negative spirits). to me  WHAT A SHAMAN OR WITCH DOES IS NO DIFFERENT THAN THE CLERGY.
shamans do pray. but it is more a petition for help in their rituals  to the gods and goddesses of their beliefs. they all know of one god and goddess as creators of the universe. but they petition to their children whom are gods and goddesses themselves for their help as well as the spirits.
shamans do perform magick rites. we burn candles and incense. we use a feather to focus on that which we petition the spirits  and the gods  about.   
shamans seek partnership with spirits. and for some shamans that is through marrige  to a spirit spouse. such as the shamans of   godi sibera practice such as marriges to ayami is one example and in ancient akkaid shaman priests would marry a ardat lili.
as noted shamans practice  vision  quests  and journeys to the spirit realms through guided meditations. and visualizations.
some speak to fae, and other non human spirits. while others with the spirits of the dead. in the middle east shamans talk to the djinn.
shamans of ancient times would draw a circle when they wish to talk to the spirits. some would use arcane symbols and sigils that are pass from a family member to another. it is only recently that a shaman would share their knowledge to a non relations.
shamans of modern times use symbols that are used by their brothers and sisters of wicca and Magick schools such as the pentagram and hexagram. however it is known that these symbols were used in the ancient middle east as well as  in india and  europe.
as noted shamans are now sharing their knowledge to the world. the reason for this is  as one shaman said: it is time for a global awakening. that each man and woman must listen to father sky and mother earth. and try to  make a change towards peace. and save this world that is our home.