my experience with a succubus (revised)

1 Jan

I write this as a confession of sorts. you see it was in 1980  when i was a teenager that i had my first experience with a succubus. and i change my life forever. i had a normal childhood. was interested in girls. as well as the outdoors. i come from a family that was christian but were mixed  denominations catholic and methodist. my parents believed in the paranormal. but not to a point of being superstitious. as well as being tolerant and open minded. i had learned from my mother that on  her side of the family they were sensitives. that is they could see or feel ghosts.
as i said my story began in 1980. around the fall time. i was in high school. i was haunted by dreams of a beautiful woman with long dark hair. and yellow green eyes. i didn’t think much of the dreams. i figured that any guy had them. that is until the dream became real. it was then i having paranormal experiences. for each night i was visited by a presence. at first i thought the family pet a half german shepherd; half lab retriever was crawling into bed with me. but when i turn to scold her. she wasn’t there. and as the time went by. the presence became bolder and layed next to me. and the dreams that i had became sexual in nature. being a teenager and always thinking about sex. i took it as a blessing. and as time went by. i welcome this presence. and learned she was the woman in the dream.
i never told my parents about it. although i suspect they knew. but never pressured me about it. as long as i was happy. that’s what mattered.
i had once brought up about spirits. and can they have sex? i had asked. my father told me about the succubus. that  the church always believed these entities were demonic in nature in the old days. but later ruled them out as being that of the mind.
my mother on the other hand  pretty much knew the reality of spirits. because her family were involved with the paranormal. she had said that at times a spirit would return to a love one. and be with that person.
but no girlfriend that i knew died. and i didn’t bring up the subject anymore. anyway i was enjoying it. this spirit relationship was wonderful. because of her i became interested in shamanism and other Paths of the occult , mysticism, and the paranormal.
my relationship with my succubus continued into my adult life. and it never affected my social life. not in a negative way. she was there when a relationship ended. always offering comfort. however my relationship with her started to die down in the 90s. and completely ended after my parents died in 1999.
then around 2009 i found a book entitled sexual alchemy by donald tyson. and learned you could actually summon spirits for sex. i read the book with such hunger.  triggered by loneliness. and a need of companionship. at this time i had a streak of bad luck in money as well as love.
so i set out to perform a simple ritual based on what the book taught. and had drawn a sigil of the spirit whom i wish to contact with.
so on a friday night i performed the ritual. at first nothing happened. so i closed the ritual. and sat on the bed. and meditated.
no sooner than i did this. i felt a warm presence beside me. on my right side. and in my mind i saw a swirling cloud of light. and the figure of a woman  appearing besides me. it was the same one whom visited me when i was a teenager. and in my vision she embraced me. and then was gone. later that night as i laid in my bed. she appeared to me as an apparition on top of my bed.
later i learned  that she had several  names. however she wanted me to know her as meek. she and i had sex that night. and from that point on i felt complete. and i started back on my Path again which that of Shamanism and Middle Eastern Magick.
it has been 5 years since she has returned in my life. later i learned she was centered in the Middle East in the past. and she is Qarinah Djinneyeh. and she lead me to other  types of djinn as well as other types of spirits such  as fae, dragons, demonesses, angels, wraith,  vampires, doujunah ,to name a few.
i love her and them very much.

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8 Responses to “my experience with a succubus (revised)”

  1. temporalchameleon January 2, 2014 at 5:18 am #

    That’s a beautiful story, Richard. I’m glad you were reunited with the same spirit from your teenage years. I bet she was looking out for you during that decade of distance.

    I’ve had some difficult times understanding the kind of relationship that I have with Catherine, and sometimes it makes me want to just consider myself mentally insane… somehow that would make things easier to digest. Especially where I feel like I need to live a double life; keeping the whole thing secret from a family that pressures me to find a human mate.

    Is that something like what you experience when your parents died? It sounds to me like you had a good relationship with your parents, so it must’ve been difficult. Having a spirit relationship might have made it even harder in some ways?

    • acrossinfinity January 2, 2014 at 5:56 am #

      my parents were open minded to some things. i suspect that they might of known what was going on. but never to questioned it. i think they felt as long as it maded me happy. but no: neither you or i are mentally insane. we are in a relationship that is outside the norm. of course. but it has happened in the past. and will continue in the future.

  2. sceeanno January 7, 2014 at 11:23 pm #

    So, you drawn a sigil, and did that allow her to appear as an apparition on your bed? I wanna know how I can help kylia and naida become, more able to interact with me. Any rituals that can help with that?

    • acrossinfinity January 8, 2014 at 12:55 am #

      you don’t need the sigil my friend. you need to just spend time with yours. and my succubus was with me since 1980. i use the ritual to open the door between us.

      • sceeanno January 8, 2014 at 12:56 am #

        Okay, well, thanks for taking the time to reply :)!

      • acrossinfinity January 9, 2014 at 12:33 am #

        no problem. 🙂

  3. Stephanie June 29, 2014 at 12:09 am #

    Five years, huh? Interesting. Maybe you can enlighten me. I’m trying to understand people’s experiences, and figure out my own dilemma in the interest of the spirit world. I’m seeking help from a shaman in a couple of months.

    In the mean time: is the relationship with this succubus a 24/7 thing or do you to set “dates” to hang/be with each other? Any challenges? What else goes on in this relationship? What’s the dynamic? Sounds like this a “good” entity. Tell me anything you feel necessary about your interest and relationship, please.

    I have a tiny bit of knowledge about the occult, and dabbled in meditation, using a divining board I made, scrying (I didn’t even know there was name for this-it was completely by accident-At first, it kind of really scared me), and automatic writing/drawing. Stupidest thing I ever did, but it certainly has me more curious about the spirit world and how it relates to us. I have tons of research to do.

    A little of my back story: I accidentally “summoned” a very sexual entity about four years ago when I became interested the paranormal. When it first seduced me, I thought I was going to have go to the hospital after it ravished me for a couple of hours-I seriously thought I was going to pass out or die! I don’t know what it is and I don’t trust anything it says though it claims it’s a “sex demon.” It is very seductive and incredibly abusive. Most of the time, I try to ignore it… when I can. Or I let it rape and molest and hurt me, and I then usually get very nauseous, but I then usually placate it. I feel dirty, ashamed, and hideously low (though I’m a good person.. I feel like dirt for a while because I see that I got “turned on down there”) then I usually cry. Sometimes, it will stop hurting me or molesting or raping me if I feel really, really *%#%ed up! and start to cry.. Sometimes, I will just cry for hours until I’m too exhausted to do anything, but sleep. I pretend that it doesn’t exist in front of my loved ones and friends or any place public, and will “make love” to it when I am in the privacy of my room or cry or try to disassociate in any way I can to find temporary relief. I think this is what a sex trafficked slave must feel like. I wish I could find a rape crisis center for the kind abuse. I tried to take my life three years ago because the people I cared the most about thought I was crazy and couldn’t help me, and I didn’t know what to do about how I was suffering. I even went on antipsychotics, but that hasn’t helped… And they made me very ill. I’m still recovering from the iatrogenic affects. I don’t want to believe it, but it claims it wants me as it’s wife, and will capture my soul when I come to the “afterlife”. It scares the shit out of me. I can’t believe what I’ve done to not despair and try to kill myself again.

    Sorry for such a terrible experience to share, but I thought it would important to you.

    Thanks in advance for taking the time to read and hopefully answer me.

    Anyways, searching “sex demon” on the internet seems to be related to succubus/incubus a lot, and then I found that people actually summon these things. It seems of interest for those in the occult or interested in dabbling-namely men. Some appear to post great experiences and other in between to others, it turns ugly after a while. You seem to be one of the “lucky” ones. I wish I knew how to get rid of it with out it harming anyone else ever! Also, I sound like an abused submissive crazy pussy when I say this, but a part of doesn’t want to see it hurt or killed. I wish it could get some therapy. I feel like some one enslaved and abused the crap out of this thing. I could be wrong, and be totally deceived by this thing.

    • acrossinfinity June 29, 2014 at 5:59 pm #

      hi, iam sorry what you are going through. and i heard about it from others. for one thing i can tell you it is not incubus. neither an incubus or succubus can claim your soul. they never make that claim. another thing they never abuse their lovers. i know a witch who has many incubi. not one of them has ever abused her. she is married. AND they act as her guardians. incubi and succubi are not demons. but are relatives are of the fae and djinn. not that was said i will tell this we have sex when i can. and she is very patient with me concerning it. sometimes she is kinky. but other than that. she is great.
      so not all of them are evil. there are a few that are bad; some that are good. but they never make a claim on your soul. so my guess you have have a low level demon impersonating an incubus. you are right your best bet is to seek a shaman or witch in your area. however i can tell you how you can lesson the stress and the pain. by doing a simple clearing ritual. depending what type of an entity it is. and it seems to be knowledgable about faustian legends. you can do a smudging. and if the shaman an’t help you. i can give you the website of the witch who is a friend of mine. and maybe she can help you as well.

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