my experience with a succubus

27 Jul

I write this as a confession of sorts. you see it was in 1980  when i was a teenager that i had my first experience with a succubus. and i change my life forever. i had a normal childhood. was interested in girls. as well as the outdoors. i come from a family that was christian but were mixed  denominations catholic and methodist. my parents believed in the paranormal. but not to a point of being superstitious. as well as being tolerant and open minded. i had learned from my mother that on  her side of the family they were sensitives. that is they could see or feel ghosts. as well as being accused of being with the devil. my father was stationed in japan, germany, and hawaii when he was in the army.. and experienced  paranormal phenomena as  encountering madam pele.
to this end i guess it was meant. some will say that it is a curse. but i had learned it could be a blessing. but enough with my background.
as i said my story began in 1980. around the fall time. i was in high school. i was haunted by dreams of a beautiful woman with long dark hair. and yellow green eyes. i didn’t think much of the dreams. i figured that any guy had them. that is until the dream became real. itt was then i having paranormal experiences. for each night i was visited by a presence. at first i thought the family pet a half german shepherd; half lab retriever was crawling into bed with me. but when i turn to scold her. she wasn’t there. and as the time went by. the presence became bolder and layed next to me. and the dreams that i had became sexual in nature. being a teenager and always thinking about sex. i took it as a blessing. and as time went by. i welcome this presence. and learned she was the woman in the dream.
i never told my parents about it. although i suspect they knew. but never pressured me about it. as long as i was happy. that’s what mattered.
i had once brought up about spirits. and can they have sex? i had asked. my father told me about the succubus. that  the church always believed these entities were demonic in nature in the old days. but later ruled them out as being that of the mind.
my mother on the other hand  pretty much knew the reality of spirits. because her family were involved with the paranormal. she had said that at times a spirit would return to a love one. and be with that person.
but no girlfriend that i knew died. and i didn’t bring up the subject anymore. anyway i was enjoying it. this spirit relationship was erotic as well as exotic. my lover came to me. and we had sex.
my relationship with my succubus continued into my adult life. and it never affected my social life. not in a negative way. she was there when a relationship ended. always offering comfort. however my relationship with her started to die down in the 90s. and completely ended after my parents died in 1999.
i wasn’t really interested that much in the paranormal or mysticism and the occult. but when you experience death. and a lost of a phantom lover. you want to know about the subject. so i started reading books on the paranormal as well as shamanism and mysticism; especially the kabbalah. and other books of occultic lore.
then around i 2009 i found a book entitled sexual alchemy by donald tyson. and learned you could actually summon spirits for sex. i read the book with such hunger.  triggered by loneliness. and a need of companionship. at this time i had a streak of bad luck in money as well as love.
so i felt i had nothing to lose. despite my christian background. i had learned there was much more to the world and to the universe. then the polarize poles of good and evil. my mother had taught me that there were other spirits that existed. and they were not all angels and demons.
so i set out to perform a simple ritual based on what the book taught. and had drawn a sigil of the spirit whom i wish to contact with.
so on a friday night i performed the ritual. at first nothing happened. so i closed the ritual. and sat on the bed. and meditated.
no sooner than i did this. i felt a warm presence beside me. on my right side. and in my mind i saw a swirling cloud of light. and the figure of a woman  appearing besides me. it was the same one whom visited me when i was a teenager. and in my vision she embraced me. and then was gone. later that night as i laid in my bed. she appeared to me as an appariation on top of my bed.
she then got on top of me. and immediately i felt myself become excited. and was in her. and we had sex. we did for three hours. in three different positions. in each one she would look at me and smiled.
later i learned  that she had several  names. however she wanted me to know her at first as Meek. i had also learned that other name among her names was Lilith. but later learned this was a surname. and she was the daughter and  avatatar of  Lilith. and she had visited me several times that week.
its been a year now. she my succubus and i are in a relationship of sorts. that my real connection is to her mother Lilith. but was her ‘husband’ because Lilith wished this. i had learned a great deal about her and her sisters. and still have much to learn. what i have learn is this:
what is true is that all succubi most of them were born to Lilith when she went back to Adam when he was separated from Eve for 130 years. and are called by Rabbis as Lilim, Lilivoth, meim,  rauchothim, shedim, sheddahim. and they like humanity are a mixture of good and evil. and they seek reconciliation with the children of Adam. to do this; they have sex with us in our dreams. there is more i wish to say on this matter. but i will write about it later in other posts.
only here i wish to end this post a message to any reader who comes across this blog. i asked the reader to be broad minded. while remaing true to his or her’s convictions. as well as be tolerant.  i write this blog not persuade or dissuade anyone. only to give account of my experience. and the possibility that there exists spirit beings who like us are neither good or evil. and have inspired the legends and myths of shidhes,faeres, djinn, apsaras, etc. peace.
i will no longer posts any rituals that  i have used on this blog.
the reason for this is that my rituals don’t work for everyone.
i have received some complaints.  and i do understand this. but iam not responsible for the outcome. and believe me i have tried to help those who had the problems with the rituals. but nothing worked.
the other reason there are others who have rituals. and have accused me of copying theirs. well in truth. all rituals are not originals. mine are based on kabbalistic magick and sihiriin magick.  so iam just passing on what i have learned.
anyone who wants a succubus or incubus. there are books out there such as sexual alchemy by donald tyson that can help you.  i have used some of  the rituals in this book. however i will not post them here in detail.
then you can go to several sites that have prebonded incubi and succubi.
just email me. and i will send you a link. or you can look them up by putting paranormal or spirit items in your search engine.
i thank you for your understanding.

9 Responses to “my experience with a succubus”

  1. praveenbahuguna May 17, 2013 at 11:40 am #

    Dear Sir,

    I’m from India,Jaipur, from Long time someone Living me from long time , now someone said it’s only a Ghost, but sometime ago when I’m in Dehradun (India) , I met a invisible Entity , we make lot of love and she have a beautiful scent , but sometime ago she leave me, that i don’t about Succubus and other’s, I respect them like them , ’cause she help me in my bad time in Dehradun city, when i’m back from that city i feel her for long time but someday i angered her ,so she left me, If you don’t mind to ask her Respected Lady , is she is Really a Succubus or a Simple Ghost, and How I call her back to me.
    I’m Thankful to you .

    Thanks & Regards,
    Praveen Bahuguna (Jaipur-India)

    • acrossinfinity May 17, 2013 at 3:00 pm #

      hello my friend,
      yes she is a succubus. they do get offended. your best bet in getting her back. is to burn cinnamon incense.
      good luck,

      • praveenbahuguna May 18, 2013 at 7:04 am #

        Many Thanks to Respected Lady and to You helping me, about my Respected one (She Help and Comfort me when I’m Sad & Lonely, Even she Save my Life many Times and Alert me Lot ,That Time I don’t know about Succubus/Succubi, only about Ghost , I think her same as them, ), I don’t know her name and she never came in my Dreams,if she i didn’t remember, and what about another Spirit who is living with me now, Tell Respected Lady to help me for better Communication with my Respected One, I don’t want her for Physical relation with her, but Socially and Respectfully too, I’m Thankful to you again.

        Thanks & Regards.
        Praveen Bahuguna
        (Jaipur – India)

        P.S. – Your Blog is Really Helpful To me, Thanks Again

      • acrossinfinity May 18, 2013 at 8:16 pm #

        you are very welcome. meditate. even just sit there and open yourself to your surroundings. it will help you communicate with her. as for her name. asked her what she wants to be called in your culture.

      • praveenbahugunapraveenbahuguna May 18, 2013 at 8:07 am #

        sorry to disturb you again ,And one more thing Is she Dark or Bright (Light), but I believe she’s Bright ’cause many lime I saw Liquid Sliver by right corner of my eye.

      • acrossinfinity May 18, 2013 at 8:13 pm #

        what do you feel? if you sense she is bright. then she is.
        remember they are like us both good and evil. they can be an angel or a devil.
        love her even if at times she might be a devil.
        they want love.

      • praveenbahuguna May 20, 2013 at 8:08 am #

        Dear Sir and Respected Lady,
        2 Years ago when I’m in Dehradun,Near Buddha Temple (Clement-Town), She came to me, That time I call for help, then she came to me, I call for My Bhuvneshavri Devi (My Family Devi), I’m really in Pain and Distress, Then She came to me, She help me lot, even I’m in Fever,Stress,Lonely, mean everything against to me, She came to me, She came to me at night time, that night i’m in pain, she touched me and told me to believe her and sleep, and I closed my eyes and when I’m awoke I’m feeling well , with lot’s of energy, that night when I asked her who she is , then she told her about this – she’s too ancient and she’s Priestess from ancient time , she came to my dream that night ,like a movie, she care for me ,rub my head/back when i’m tired, eat with me, we are having good time and when the day she needed most,she encourage me to Prayers and Purity ,when I ask her what is her name She told me Rakthvarna , She
        save my Life,and when I’m coming back to my city she came to me as she came to as a form of Night Butterfly ,it’s true we are psychical, even she’s with me on Day Time, I saw her one or two time, Day before I Burn Sandalwood Incense and offer her Mint Herb at Day Time and after that I saw Silver Orb emerge from Incense Stick for sometime and disappear in the room. (I didn’t Find Cinnamon Incense yet). Sometimes she scent like Beautiful Scent and sometimes like Sulfur, and I just want her to see Fully, when we are in mood i feel her Palms on my back, like human hand, ask Respected Lady – when I’m going to see her like normal people, and ask her How many Spirits are living with me,I’m Thankful to you and The Lady (Sorry for my Grammar)

        Thanks & Regards

        Praveen Bahuguna

        P.S. : Google earth for Buddha Temple.

      • acrossinfinity May 20, 2013 at 2:42 pm #

        the sandalwood is fine. it took awhile before i could feel and touch my lady as a physical being.
        meditate as much as possible. open yourself to her.
        and invite her to interact with you.
        it will take time. but it is worth it.

      • praveenbahuguna May 21, 2013 at 5:01 am #

        Thanks to You and Respected Lady , and She look Beautiful with Feathers, Some Days ago someone Touched me with Golden Orb,Thanks Again

        Thanks & Regards
        Praveen Bahuguna

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